I admit defeat! I freaking give up! Bruce Lee was very cool, but I give up!
I am SO freaking sick and tired of helping one issue via a certain diet only to have that way of eating disagree with something else I’m dealing with! My blood sugar has clearly come back down to where it should be by McDougalling, but my temperamental entire digestive tract that’s been a problem since birth (literally since birth) has gotten immensely worse. Right now I’m in pain and look 5 months pregnant. My IBS has clearly flaired up and by taking magnesium or Aloe Lax to help “go”….I end up going too much. I’ve got severe and painful gas and have to run to the loo on a regular basis. Everything hurts. I look terrible. And….I started craving fats so bad last night I couldn’t take it anymore and ate some sunflower seed butter. I feel constantly hungry but unsatisfied. I could probably eat 10,000 calories (but I won’t as it is still hard to keep from gaining when you eat all this starch no matter what “they” say) and still feel hungry. I’m tired of thinking about food all the time. I just want to get on with things!
Someone on the McDougall chat board mentioned Ayurveda to me and I definitely need to read more about what Vatas should eat. I did dabble in it a while back and didn’t follow all the recommendations, but had clear improvement. I do know that Vatas need FATS…warm, high fat, sweet food! Of course, that may be an issue with my damn blood sugar. But right now, I’ve got to get my stomach and intestines to calm down from this major flair up. Ayurvedic medicine has been around for a LONG time so it must be worthwhile. As I type this, I’ve not got heartburn too. Lovely…(as I burp up acid). It’s time for me to take an individual/personalized approach and listen to what my annoying body wants. Forget all the diet gurus. I am reading a book by the wonderful Thich Nhat Hanh right now where he mentions that humans are the only species who run to doctors when there’s any sign of a problem. The animal kingdom fasts and rests and allows its body to self heal. The body is intelligent if we give it a chance. It would be a good idea for me to fast for a few days to “reset” but I don’t know that I can do that with my blood sugar. What I can do is stop taking things to fix constipation that actually end up throwing off my system in the opposite direction, try what ancient Ayurveda suggests for Vatas….AND….as Thich says, practice mindfulness and tune into my body to see what it’s trying to say….to listen to its cry for help. There is definitely some mind/body stuff going on too.
I literally got zero sleep last night because my innards were making such loud noises. I’m not kidding. That was the 2nd night of strange noises emanating from deep within my gut. That, mixed with a spirit in the kitchen slamming cabinet doors didn’t help. But that’s for my other blog.
I just found this and HOLY MOLY it’s me! They should have my photo here! http://www.mapi.com/ayurvedic-knowledge/doshas/vata.html#gsc.tab=0 Right down to the part where although I love apples and pears, they tend to hurt my stomach!
Atheria the WAY out of balance Vata