I will NOT go down without a fight! I’m fed up! Can you tell?! I WILL pummel my body into submission! I WILL win! Ommm…Ommm…Must calm down and get centered. Ommm… ;-) I’m going to cross post this rant in both my Hypoglycemic Journey blog and my On Angels’ Wings Productions blog because it touches on both health/nutrition and metaphysics.
So for the good news, my blood sugar control has been really good for quite a while. Granted, I can’t take my hypoglycemia for granted and still eat smaller amounts of whole/real food more often, but I don’t have to eat 8 times a day and can get away with some things I had to 100% avoid, previously, in moderation. I average 5 snacks/meals a day…sometimes 4 and sometimes 6…but usually 5. I do avoid gluten (although I briefly tested real sourdough wheat bread as I heard people with gluten problems can eat true sourdough made the old fashioned way with starter) and have successfully stayed vegan.
The bad news is that my bad-since-birth (seriously…since a baby) digestive system has gotten increasingly HORRID the past year or so. It’s like my digestive tract has quit. I do know there is a link between hypoglycemia and digestive system problems, but this seems way beyond that. I have attributed it to being perimenopausal at age 49 (read up on how shifting estrogen can cause your body to cut back on necessary bile production, which causes gas, bloating, constipation, etc.) and have tried various combinations of eating styles to help…to no avail. I’m so uncomfortable every day I can’t take it anymore. Seemingly, nothing agrees with me anymore! Becoming a breatharian is looking like a real possibility at this point. Years ago I read about an Eastern Indian yogi who didn’t eat for 46 years or something and was in perfect health. She got her sustenance through prana. But, since I’m not quite to the level of advanced yogi, I probably need to eat SOMETHING.
In the middle of my nightly yoga session tonight, it popped into my head that I need to go back to raw fooding, concentrating on mostly fruit and nuts/seeds/fats. I already know that raw veggies are hard for me to digest, but I can eat some. I’ve just got to limit the veggies. Many years ago when I was raw, “meals” of fruit and nut butters made me feel the best. It was also the only time of my life where I didn’t have to take laxatives to go to the bathroom and where my body actually successfully did what it was supposed to do on its own without horrible bloating and gas. I learned a couple of days ago that A LOT of fruit with lettuce and no fat can cause major pain and bloat, so I’m going to do a high fat raw diet with a bit less fruit. I recall reading this gal’s blog who had done every form of diet imaginable and posted pictures of herself during various diets through the years. She ended up settling on a high raw diet, but not all raw, with higher protein and some animal products. But, I felt she looked the best when she was high fat raw vegan. She didn’t look as good when she ate high starch/carb with very low fat (and developed hair problems) or when she did 80-10-10 raw…or when she did Atkins or paleo.
I actually tested some foods today with my pendulum, and got interesting answers. I could only test what I had with me at work. My pendulum said NO to black tea and peanut butter. It said YES to rice cakes, coffee (Whoop!), nuts, an apple, and tuna fish. (I had an old can of tuna in my cabinet and will not be eating it, trust me.) When I went to a holistic chiropractor who did kinesiology 2-3 years ago, it irked him to no end that via muscle testing, my body said it really liked coffee. He was anti coffee. :-) I, on the other hand, feel it keeps me alive! And my body agreed! Anyway, I mention using a pendulum or having someone do kinesiology on you (trying to push your arm down while you hold a food) to see what your body says it likes or doesn’t like. Now, just because my body said today that rice cakes are okay for me doesn’t mean I feel I should eat them right now. I’ve really got to get my digestive tract healed and functioning normally. Taking probiotics isn’t working.
I was reading a book today about the life force/energy of food and do think that raw food is what I need to do, or at least mostly raw vegan food. No more processed soy protein powder. No more cooked beans and rice. I have this intuitive feeling that what’s going on with me isn’t “just” emotional issues held in my body or stress or purely physical either. I think there is a spiritual component. Everyone keeps saying that the vibration on Earth is dramatically increasing (including some of the beings I trance channel) and I am suspecting that, energetically, what I’ve been eating just is not working for my body’s vibratory rate anymore. I have been having more spontaneous channeling episodes the last few months, so clearly something is shifting with me energetically. It’s definitely possible that right now I need to get my diet as simple and high in vibration as I can. The good news is that I won’t be burning anymore pans that I forget I have on the stove! Living on bananas and almond butter is the lazy (wo)man’s dream. Ha!
Too much of my energy has been wasted dealing with my health and I need to move on. I’ve got other things I should be doing than laying on the couch gripping my stomach. I also just got approved for Botox injections in my head and neck for my chronic headache h*ll, so I’m praying that’ll work and I can truly move on in 2016 and focus my energy on writing and spiritual work. Stay tuned. You know I’ll let you know what happens!