Yes I’m still struggling with controlling my blood sugar. L I had a really good day yesterday up until after 4 p.m. I was having tea with a friend and lost track of time and was an hour late with my snack. All of a sudden the blood drained from my head and I started to feel shaky. I quickly ate the 2 little peaches and hunk of cheese I brought with me, which helped for a while, but from that time on…and all night long…I didn’t feel stable. I got maybe 2 hours of sleep last night. And today I feel very unstable. I just had to eat lunch a bit early because I didn’t feel great and my blood sugar was 82. In general, with some rare exceptions, I don’t feel good once I get into the 80s. Then again, days ago I didn’t feel good at 127 either, but an article on Joslin’s website FINALLY verified what I go through.
My problem has always been that I fall too fast, not necessarily to under the official hypoglycemic level of 70. And, I really do think my body prefers to be at higher blood sugars so that when I’m at a normal number, I don’t feel good (sometimes). A diabetic friend of mine goes through that. She actually lets her numbers run a bit high because she can’t stand how she feels when she’s at the numbers her doctors want her to be at.
An additional upset that has been plaguing me for months, and seems to be getting worse, is that my hypoglycemia has actually started triggering panic attacks. I’ve had such severe and scary low blood sugar attacks when I’m alone, that now I get scared if I feel too far from medical help or if food isn’t easily and quickly available. My fear starts to make me panic, which then triggers my blood sugar to get all messed up. It’s a vicious cycle. The past week I’ve started to panic when I go to bed at night. I live alone. I have had to try to psych myself out of it and deep breathe my may out of the heart racing and fear. It’s awful. I am someone who used to travel the world alone and now I’m afraid to be alone in my own home. The fact that my health has caused an emotional issue makes me want to cry even more. I am a fighter and will continue to try to get these panic attacks to stop, but it’s hard. I just wish to God I could go back in time to before my endocrine system blew.
As a side note, I do think I need to increase my carbohydrate intake a bit. I just have to make sure to eat carbs with protein and fat.
Carrie / Atheria